Que Sera, Sera.

Jan 7th at 2AM / tagged: personal. / 1 note

Originally I would’ve posted this yesterday but I was too tired from the amount of plane rides I had to take. Anyways, just a heads up this post will probably get a little corny.

I never expected to see you yesterday and honestly it all feels like it was a dream; like it never even happened at all. It was bittersweet. I only got to spend less than an hour with you but regardless of the short time we had together, I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I knew that people in a long distance relationship always got that jittery feeling prior to getting to see their boyfriend or girlfriend again but I never knew the feeling personally, until yesterday.My nerves got the best of me, I couldn’t stop shaking, my breathing got heavy, my legs couldn’t stop bouncing and when I’d stand up my legs felt like jelly.

I’m so blessed and lucky that we missed that flight to Minneapolis. While my family was trying to arrange another flight back home I thought, “wouldn’t it be awesome if we somehow ended up in Toronto?” but then I told myself it was only wishful thinking.. until my mom came running up to me saying, “Jeane! We’re stopping over in Toronto for 3 hours!” I swear I said “are you serious” a total of 7 times until my mom got fed up of answering back. Everything around me pretty much froze when I realized that I had a chance of seeing you again, so I went frantic and tried reaching you as best as I could. When I got to the airport a wave of sadness hit me because I had no reply and because I realized I might not be able to exit the gates. Thank god plans pulled through and I got to see you. When I saw you standing there with Darielle and Chelsea I kind of wanted to run away because I was scared and nervous.. but screw it you were there physically and right there in front of me. It still hasn’t sunk in that I got to hold you and be with you again.. wow. I even forgot how tall you were and your height is perfect. I stand right under your chin, maybe a couple centimetres further too, haha.

I swear, I made such a fool out of myself because I kept talking and mumbling and my nerves just got the best of me. But damn, 5 months without seeing you and simply resorting to Skype nights, phone calls and texts. Where phone cards, wi-fi access and cell phones became holy to us. In that short amount of time I got to do the things I’ve always wanted to. I got to hug you, (well, more like suffocate you with my deathly grip), I got to hold your hand, I got to kiss you (which beats making kissy faces and sounds any freaking day), I got to have you so damn close to me with no restrictions whatsoever and most importantly I got to say I love you in person for the very first time. Like I said.. I still can’t believe yesterday happened. I woke up thinking it was all a dream until I opened my phone and saw the pictures of you and I. I wish we could’ve had longer but I cherish yesterday like crazy. 

“I can’t believe it’s been five months already.”

“Soft. So what, I’ll wait another five.”