February 2012
14 posts
I don’t want to be a college drop out or anything but I don’t know if I can handle school at this point in my life. I know the semester is just about to finish too, but I’m really not sure about anything anymore. I don’t know if I’m emotionally and mentally stable enough to pursue all of this for 4 years straight. I’m barely getting by this year and not only is...
You and I in the same vicinity is not a smart idea. It’s dangerous and it’s too risky. I know you and the way you act around me is not a good.
Self-proclaimed People.
I swear kids nowadays get high end and mega expensive shit thinking that once they cop it, it reflects on the type of person they are. For example: Kids these days are buying SLR’s and automatically they’re a photographer. Some are going out buying Beats by Dre’s and they think they know everything about music. Kids go out buying hella expensive...
I hate it when you text someone and they don’t reply back, even the next day and yet they have all the time in the world to be on Facebook or other social networking sites. Tch, bullshit man. Nice to know I’m so worth your time.
I can’t burden anyone with what I’m going through, what I’m thinking or the things I’ve considered doing. I’ll just feel even more bad and it’ll push me even further.
I’m too scared to admit that my problem is far more serious than I choose to believe. I indulge in good company with friends but I don’t think that’s working as well as before. This negativity is corrupting everything around me and I’m starting to lose my grasp on things. And these thoughts… I shouldn’t be thinking. I’m trying everything in my right mind...
If I don’t take the initiative for myself to feel and get better, I’ll never achieve a stable mind. I really need to take action for myself because I’m honestly deteriorating.
Had a really good talk with Justin today after having a week’s worth of dry conversations. I have concluded that I really do love this guy because I’m comfortable enough to talk about poop with him. Never have I ever talked about poop with anyone besides Kate, basically. That’s big shit right there (harharhar, I had to). Goodnight y’aaaaall.
Tu me manques. Je ne save pas les émotions qui parcour dedans ma tête et coeur. J’ai des pensées que je ne peut pas te dire car tu pensera que je suis rien qu’un fou. Je ne veut pas admettre que les choses sont différent maintenant. C’est rien que ridicule.
I’m starting to dread our conversations now. I don’t know what to do.
January 2012
18 posts
Honestly there are so many people that have zero reasons to be unhappy, so why do they go out and drown themselves in their “sorrows”? Shit other people have it much tougher yet these people find reasons to bitch and moan about. If you’re unhappy, do something about it. You can’t make progress if you don’t even attempt to. Don’t be a pussy and make up excuses...
Just when I thought you were unlike the others I realize you hide things from me too. Is it that hard for people to be honest now? I guess honesty and trust is becoming a rare trait to find now. That’s all I really ask for, and you know that. I keep telling you that all I want is honesty. If you’re going to tell me stories at least make sure they stay the same. Don’t tell me one...
Girl, if you’re gonna claim that you’re “classy” at least have the decency to back it up.
Being a nursing student is tough. I’m going through clinical practices right now and there’s a lot that you have to experience. It’s nothing to complain about obviously, but it’s great to have a hands on experience. I’m placed in a long term care facility, and today I realized how sad it is hearing some of the things the residents say. A lot of them are just waiting...
Haha, the usual. Completedd (Kate) and I.
I often wonder what my friend’s families think of me. I mean, I’m not necessarily your average filipino daughter (anymore). I don’t dress as clean, my hair screams rebellion and when they find out about my bad habits and god forbid my tattoo, I wonder what they think? I wonder if they’ll ask their kids to stray away from me partially due to fear of influence or perhaps like...
Hahaha, I have dirty friends.
You need to get the thought of me always running back to you straight out of your head. You can try and get my attention but I’m not going to falter like the other times. I’m not that lost and pathetic girl that always comes back to you hoping things will workout in our favour. Things have changed.
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So.. I finished reading the Hunger Games trilogy today! Finished all of them in a span of 3-4 days. I loved the series but I felt like Mockingjay was a little lacking, maybe that’s just me.. I won’t ruin the books though. I really loved the series because Katniss was definitely a different character from a lot of books that I’ve read. She’s really unique and very...
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I know we’re all hypocrites one way or another, but some people take it onto a whole new level. Some people are honestly just walking contradictions and attention whores. It bothers me when people are “strong believers” of something and are so adamant about it, yet once others are on a different spectrum of insight, their beliefs change and they go with what other people like. If...
You always do this. You always come back when things are “done” between us. You always try to squeeze yourself into my life when I’ve just learned to leave you out of it.
It used to work. But I know better now.
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2011 Memories
Haven’t posted in time! It’s been a hectic month with finals and also winter break at my uncle’s here in Florida. I’m waiting on the food to cook so I can finally feast with the fam, so I thought I’d make a list of my 2011 highlights. This year definitely was a blur. It went by hella fast but it was a good one none the less.
Sledding with the Fam Jam, Hannah’s...
December 2011
3 posts
Would you rather have someone in your life who never apologizes, or someone who apologizes too much?
You wouldn’t want someone who never apologizes and someone who causes you to be the one taking all the blame to try and salvage the relationship you two have. It doesn’t make you feel any better as a person at all because they make you feel like you’re the one who’s...
My boyfriend got a new cell phone and number today and pretended he was a guy named Nelson. Throughout the conversation I kept saying that I don’t know anybody named Nelson and I apologized for coming off rude seeing as I forgot who this person was. So I asked him if he could remind me of how I met him and he brought up how I met saw him at the airport and thought he was cute and it started...
November 2011
10 posts
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So I was on the phone with my boyfriend and I told him how I’m scared a shark will eat me and tear me to pieces if I went deep sea fishing in Florida. I told him how my family would be too traumatized to collect my bloody limbs so they’d come back to Saskatoon empty handed and wouldn’t be able to give me a proper burial. Then Justin said that first of all he would go to Florida...
I swear my nursing group and I have such strange conversations. Last week we were talking about nipple piercings and one of my group members who got hers pierced. Today we talked about massaging someone’s groin and watching it take place. And we also talked about how my friend would prefer to sleep with a black guy instead of a white guy and how her cousin just broke up with her black...
Are you serious? You think I’m in this relationship because I feel sorry for you? You’ve got to be kidding me.. I’m in this because I have genuine feelings for you, not because I pity you. I’m not putting in so much for this relationship because I feel sorry for you, I’m sacrificing a lot because my feelings are real. I don’t understand why you constantly put me...
I don’t know if I miss you as an individual, or if I miss you and all the memories that we had. I know we’re both happy where we are right now. I don’t know what’s going on in your life anymore and vice versa, but if we even attempted to become close friends again it would throw everything out of wack. I know I have no right at all to miss you after everything, but I do....
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It’s sad when you have that one person in your life who you used to be so tight with, only to realize that you two have drifted so drastically. It might be someone who you’d kick it with often; someone that you called, texted, and just conversed with on a daily; whether if it’s your ex or your former best friend. It sucks thinking back on the good times only to get that nostalgic...
When you’re in a long distance relationship, I guess there’s really not a lot you can expect from them. As much as they would want to, they can’t fulfil all your wants and needs to the best of your expectations. I always catch myself wanting more from my boyfriend and then I stop to realize that there’s really only so much he can do. He can’t exactly fly to your side...
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If you’re mad, don’t take your emotions out on me. It pisses me off when people just spread their bad vibes to everyone and are completely inconsiderate of how other people feel. Don’t come at me like a bitch and give me attitude because guaranteed you’ll just get even more pissed off with how people will deal with your sour attitude in return. Deal with your shit...
October 2011
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Man.. Tumblr is such a dark place. First bullying now suicides. I’m not trying to make judgements here but people really shouldn’t call the suicidal people cowardly. Yes it’s true that things do get better and yes, we should always value the life that God gave us. It’s just that what most people don’t understand is that depression isn’t just some phase or...
“What you must understand about me is that I’m a deeply unhappy person.”
― John Green, Looking for Alaska
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